#HAWMC Day 5 – Drifting in dangerous waters

5 Apr

I’m drifting, detached from existence, alone but so peaceful. The only voice I hear is that of my own, the messages it gives not always welcome! No one drifts by, I see them in the distance though I struggle to reach them, suddenly feeling weak I begin to cry!

I’m lost, afraid, so many questions left unanswered, no one to comfort me nor direct me, no one but my own reflection.

I see her, the young woman stood before me and though I recognise her, her face seems somewhat different, her eyes intensely tired & without sparkle, an expression of worry spread across her face, one I have not seen before.

Her mind has been taken and no longer does she own, a woman consumed with guilt and blame she has no escape, no way to explain to return to the place she once knew.

Trapped in mind and body, screaming from the inside out, no longer able to look at her dispirited self, beyond disrepair she dissolves into the waters that surround her, those that once held her now invade her she screams loudly yet no one looks up.

Detached from reflection and without direction, distorted in her thinking and over taken by nothingness she analysis the situation only to realise shes alone because it’s safer this way, she pushed them all away and retreated to craziness…

Alone at Dawn Photo Credit: Title Alone at Dawn, Flickr, HelenJr

Post is written as a reflection of my past mental health difficulties and has been posted as part of the Wego Health’s #HAWMC (Health Activist Writers Month Challenge) 30 days, 30 prompts, 30 post. This is post 5/30 prompt: Find inspiration within a random Flicker image.

6 Responses to “#HAWMC Day 5 – Drifting in dangerous waters”

  1. Angela Coles (@ToucanScraps) April 6, 2012 at 8:17 pm #

    powerful piece of creative writing.

    Thank you for finding my blog and leaving your comment.

    Many blessings to you and your son,

  2. clairelouise82 April 6, 2012 at 3:22 am #

    Aww I’m fine thanks hun, sorry had deadline for midnight so added the picture and the link to the theme after your comment. Just taking part in the #HAWMC which gives 30 prompts over 30 days and I was referring to past mental health problems, through great today.🙂 xx

  3. jbmumofone April 5, 2012 at 11:08 pm #

    Honey, are you ok? i have not checked in for a while so guess you may be writing for a theme? Hope all is good. If not feel free to come bend my ear. Hugs x


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